I remember when I first came down to South Florida and ventured into FHE Health, I was surrounded by addicts and alcoholics, but mostly IV drug users. Instantly, I was looking for ways to separate myself from being a part of. It wasn’t long before I was told that I would forever suffer from this spiritual, mental, and physical disease which meant that I couldn’t partake in consuming any mood or mind-altering substances. Yet again, I was looking for a way to set myself apart.
I managed to accumulate ten months sober before this insidious disease grabbed me by the throat once again. Thoroughly convinced I was not an alcoholic but simply a girl that had an opiate problem – I found myself drinking for the first time. Let me tell you about that experience. My first-night drinking after ten months of continuous sobriety, I was drinking like I never stopped drinking. I found myself bar-hopping in downtown Fort Lauderdale, making an absolute fool of myself, losing my phone, and waking up the following day with a massive hangover that only my beloved opiates could cure. I was off to the races.
Do you know what that relapse taught me? I am an alcoholic – through and through. Looking back, my brain, body, and soul were craving reprieve. Without a solution and zero defense against the first drink, I ran to the only solution I knew. I can see how the relapse happened long before the actual relapse. Fortunately, it was a short run. A.A. kind of ruined getting drunk for me. I wound up back in the rooms, yet again, and I was finally willing to accept that I was truly an alcoholic to my very core. That radical acceptance came with a tall order. I had only one thing to change, and that was everything.
When I stepped back into recovery, I’d love to tell you that I picked back up where I left off, but that would be a lie. I had to start over from square one. This meant that I had to accept that my way didn’t work. I went through the withdrawal process and then had to re-learn all of the healthy coping mechanisms and spiritual solutions all over again. Here are a few of the best ways I learned to combat alcohol cravings when I got sober almost five years ago.