At the end of the road, the sufferer of addiction knows loneliness and isolation like few do. Desperation and the thoughts of ending one’s life appear with regularity.
It isn’t how it starts out however. At the beginning when we first use everything seems to feel right. We feel we are part of life at last and life final makes sense. Confidence is at an all-time high and social skills seem to be at their highest. Yet is the illness playing its vicious game with yet another victim .The illness begins to lick its chops knowing one more will enter the gates of hell. We feel when we are in this place that we can’t tell anyone or at no one knows about it. My appeal here is to the sufferer who may be reading this. You are not alone! Repeat you are not alone! There is so much help from so many who have been on this walk to heel and yet have escaped to find a life of bliss and freedom.
Understand it is your illness running and ruing your life and doesn’t want you to reveal it to anyone. Yet if your reading this it is the part of you that wants help and really wants to scream please help me. Sometimes the fear of living a clean and sober life can be overwhelming as its all we know and we are gripped in fear.
There is a way out. Ask anyone in recovery. Oh you don’t know any in recovery? Great – There are many waiting for you at your local 12 step fellowship and or treatment centers.
Reach out for help, its right here and they are waiting for you.
Blessings,
Chop wood, carry water
